General Head-Noise
22/1/24
Starting
The day is overcast. I look out the window and see the gray sky and the white snow. The contrast is pleasant and matches my emotional landscape.
7:14 am
Up and moving…
Topic
Journal
The journal tag is a bit different than the notebook tag… The journal or personal thoughts, feelings, reveries, etc. that I want to document.
The notebook, on the other hand, is this a bunch of stuff that I find I don’t wanna lose track of.
General Head-Noise
21/2/24
General Head-Noise posts are started at the beginning of my day and updated throughout the day. The posts contain a semi-structured collection of thoughts, reflections, reactions, associations, and observations.
There are far from fully formed / completely thought out ideas. Instead, they are ideas in an emergent state,
One Effect of Being an Analysand
After being in analysis for years, I've experienced saying more and less than I intend. I've made slips, I've been arrogant, I've been overly deferential, so on and so forth. Even after several years of this, I'm still surprised when
A Note on Getting Older & Wasted Time
Today is one of those days where I look at the books that I have on my shelves,
and the pdf files on my computer's desktop, the ones I’ve read, and the ones
that I have not read, and I feel a sort of weight—the weight
Making Sentences
I've been writing every day for some time now. Be that as it may, I don't have a
massive amount of writing done. The bit of text
[https://www.surplusjouissance.com/something-went-wrong/] I sent out/posted
about my experience of being a kid when the Challenger
Random Thing in an Old Notebook
Going through an old notebook, I found the following sentence:
> Analysts more than most people set up boundaries and then let people have
whatever reaction they want to have to those boundaries.
I don’t know if this was something I thought up and then wrote down or if
The Quotidian Associations №008 | Self Criticism & Self Agrandisment
I've been reading some Derrida [https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jacques_Derrida]
as of late. Whenever I do this, I start to think about things deconstructively
[https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/derrida/#Dec]. I playfully consider the
binary opposition between two related concepts and think about what would
◉ Newsletter v.4.3 | What is Happening in Ukraine
This week I've been reading articles, listening to podcasts, and seeing images
and videos of what is happening in Ukraine. In the papers, I've seen lots of
words about the heroic resistance of the Ukrainians. The text, sounds, and
images that show brave people standing up
The Quotidian Associations №007 | Writing Things
I'm thinking about the text (book?) I want to write. I think about this often.
The problem is that the imagined vision of the finished text keeps changing. Be
that as is it may, I keep returning to a particular desire: I want to write a
text that
The Quotidian Associations № 006| Libidinal Economy
Events that have taken place during the past few days have got me thinking about
libidinal economy. Marxists (and other politically interested people) think
about political economy. Psychoanalysts think about libidinal economy.
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Nowadays, people will often use the term libido as a synonym for sex drive, but
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